There were three counts in the indictment and Weihrich was found guilty only on the third count which accused him of walking in sandals and of something else. I could not understand that.

Later: I saw a photo of Gessmann and spoke with him about it.

The evening before the dream Beta ate dark buttered rolls, called in Vienna Bosniak, or Hadschi-loja, after the name of a Bosnian insurgent leader. Shortly thereafter he vomited and felt pain in the kidney region. He thought it was due to acids. All acids cause him to vomit. He has similar pains followed by diarrhea if he eats soft pears.

The analysis discloses important associations to school principal Weihrich. First the associations: Weihrich, - Weihe, - Weiher, - Wei (woe). Association with X (-feet) Wei - and Gessmann, - the well-known antisemite, - scorn against his physician. His plaint is that the latter has robbed him of the enjoyment-value of his perversions. He feels as if plunged into a dizzy, cloudy state (smoke). Dizziness leads to rocking. He recalls that as a small boy he was once rocked on the knee by a soldier.

That is the root of his foot fetichism. Toe-sucking is a part of this condition, as has been pointed out by Adler.

The subject yearns to take into his mouth a dirty, sweaty foot, - especially the great toe. The symbolic equation displaces foot for hand, the great toe for the thumb which in its turn stands for penis or nipple. This leads to perversion (fellatio) and the nurse complex.

Bosniak is a Viennese colloquialism for a Bosnian soldier. Hadschir-loja leads him to hatschen=tramping. His vomiting, pains and the diarrhea lead back to an old phantasy, - sticking the toe into the mouth and swallowing the perspiration (butylic acid = butter). Waking phantasies just before falling asleep: swallowing a big foot.

Another determination of the foot fetichism: he has been taught to regard the penis as something disgusting, something to be ashamed of. He transposed all the libido to the erogenously endowed foot.

Gessmann leads back to the English term "guess." I am the one who is merely guessing, -who knows nothing. The photo (my picture) looked to be a very poor one. It was altogether too light. Gessmann is dark. White, - weiss - again leads him to Schweiss, - sweat - and to his idiosyncrasy against juicy roast beef. In the hunter's jargon blood means sweat. Roast beef also reminds him of perspiration, - avoidable by the wearing of sandals. (Symbolic equation: blood, sweat, pus, saliva, spermatic fluid, air, language, money, etc.).

There are three features in the dream: (a) his English woman, (o) his brother, (c) foot perspiration. From the first two I have already weaned him through the analysis; now I am about to take him away from the last. Hence the scornful attitude,- hence the reproach: foot, - flat feet, - Weigeschrien (outcry). Further associations lead to Eugene Sue's Wandering Jew, and this again to suer, Fr., perspiration.

But he himself is the Ahasverus. One of his favorite phantasies was the story of Ahasverus, of the Flying Dutchman, or of some other wandering hero. His phantasies about foot are masochistic, revolving around the idea of expiation.

What he "cannot" understand is what he learns through psychoanalysis. The moment he understands it his compulsive neurosis is over. But the infantile compulsions secure for him much pleasure. He does not want to give them up.

The dream contains a number of deep affects. It discloses great scorn of the analyst. But all this is so covered up that the dream apparently is void of affect.

Finally, I am dead. He relegates me to the ranks of the deceased. Walking in sandals means joining eternity. Sometimes he does not understand me. Er ist ihm etwas zu geistreich. I have also become a ghost (Gesstmann = Geistmann). A ghost is white, pale. I have too much color to suit him. But I exist for him only in a picture (photo). That opens a new path of associations: his belief in the reality of the devil. I am the devil for him. I am rendering him potent, i.e., connecting him with woman. He wants to remain an ascete, - a holy man. He is continually dwelling on situations in which he is dealt with unfairly. He is invited to an evening entertainment. The thing is called off. Immediately he builds up a serious offence out of it. He is looking for irrelevant troubles. He likes to think of himself as suffering unjustly. After the evening entertainment was called off he wrote me the following interesting letter:

"The cancellation of the entertainment which was due to-morrow, that change followed closely by another change of plans, has caused me considerable depression, although I find the postponement of the hunting trip, on the whole, rather pleasing, for hunting always makes me nervous. Indeed, even the depression was not without its pleasurable feeling. The disappointment, the setback, brought me a certain measure of satisfaction. I am masochistic. And the masochist is passive. Woman is passive, man is active. That is the reason why the masochist has the feelings of a woman, and wants a man to dominate over him; he seeks an active person; hence the preference for a soldier, - an active soldier. The chief passive pleasure, the chief gratification of the masochist is the 'pati,' the 'passion,' hence the ideas of expiation; his worst Urdust, action, i.e., coitus.

"As a child I must have been the victim of some great injustice which, nevertheless, gave me pleasure, and now I am evidently always trying to reproduce the situation.

"And, in fact, have I not renounced everything worth while? My illness is an expression of complete self denial. Ich koitiere nicht, - I live asex-ually, I hardly meet a companion, I do not go to the theater, I shut myself up more and more away from everybody, engrossed in my books. My feeling of dread protects me against gratification. I even have moments when I wish nothing better than to die off and be wholly forgotten: the highest masochism."

During these deep impressions he has a very remarkable day dream phantasy: