The strange thing was that he hardly defended himself and he heard the sentence with the calm of one who, if not guilty) must be an angel. He is sentenced for life. His behavior in gaol is so wonderful that even the gaol guards look upon him as a holy man, he consoles those who are ill, heals them, he almost works wonders. After years and years the story of the man's holy character reaches the gaol commissioner who pardons him, but without lifting the sentence. The news is brought to the man. But the saintly man has lost all contact with life, and all sense of its pettiness. He is transfigured, - he is Christ himself; his greatest triumph is that he has lost his sexuality through saintliness; he is sexless and like an infinite ray of light drawing heavenwards. The commissioner is speechless, - unable to approach him at all; he continues his existence in his own way.

This phantasy discloses the roots of his asceticism. He complains that he is leading a sinful life (Weihr - ich).

The term Weihrich is very ingeniously chosen by the unconscious. It refers to his devil- and smell-complex. (The devil stinks.) But, as Weihrauch, it also leads to the holiness-complex. The commissioner (or director) stands for the father. The latter has once punished him unjustly. This is the infantile situation which he reproduces in later life: "Blessed are they who are persecuted for righteousness' sake. For theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

He is longing for the kingdom of heaven. He wants to reach his father. Through his asceticism he means to earn for himself a higher place in heaven. At this point we find that Adler's conception is corroborated. He wants to be a woman,- to possess no penis. But these female trends merely serve the purpose of enabling him to triumph over the father. He wants to join eternal life and therein triumph over his father. He, a holy man, his father a sinner. He wants to raise his voice against his father (director) before the divine stool.

But what is the reason for his antagonism towards the father? It is the old rivalry, - over his English governess. The latter was his greatest love. After the nurse, the governess was the dearest person to him. She could not be friendly with any one else. That made him mad. His father was rather more than warm in his attitude towards the English governess. Beta has had opportunity to observe and listen to a number of things, small and big, which made his blood boil. How could that be? His Mary kissing some one else? It hurt his feelings; it roused in him bitter thoughts and fancies of revenge. A little child is helpless against the adults. But with some poison he might easily revenge himself on his enemies. Hence the nausea and vomiting and the diarrhea after eating Hadschi-loja. The father was a Pasha, - he owned a harem. His masochistic thoughts are compensations for the criminal tendencies of his childhood.

Furthermore, I am the director against whom he complains. Chiefly on account of the third point (or count): III point - III illness - III = third sex - homosexuality. His hatred is unrequited love. Who would have suspected this array of affects back of that dream?

The next dream is also rich in affective coloring and belongs to a compulsion neurotic, Mr. Gino: