I Am-Jeffrey Edwin Edelheit and I am the author of Divinity, the Choice of God. I began writing the book several years ago as to share the feeling and experiences I was having through my transition period. Like so many people, I went looking to find the answer to feelings that were inside of me. Feelings that I could not find answers to or other people who could even remotely understand what was going on inside of me. It was like having an awareness of the universe and being caught in a body that I did not know what to do with. After sharing this feeling with someone at my favorite health food store she said "I know just the person you need to see" She handed me some tapes of a lecture given by a local spiritual teacher and the second I heard them I knew that I had found what I was looking for. At the time I did not realize that I just entered into a Karmic path of reclamation. My Soul knew the importance of circumstances and synchronicity and provided me with the feeling needed to be attracted to and be able to pursue the needed experience. I became a devoted follower and over a seven-year period, more than once was prepared to give my life for the teacher. Everything I had, was given. Including all of my power, most of which I did not even realize was already within me. This part of my life can be a book within itself. I can say that when you follow a spiritual teacher be willing to play by their rules as it's a part of their path. When the time came for me to Come Home the circumstances were in play and became outside the circle that I sacrificed so much to be within.

Part of me felt as if I was being divinely guided through and my emotional side felt as if I had become a Karmic Wasteland. Prior to the time of the separation the feelings of negative energy were building. To the point that when we were in a group mediation I actually thought as if I was bringing in the darkness and did all I could to prevent this not know that what I was feeling was the truth of what appeared to have been Devine energy. I never had the courage or conviction to question and risk being scorned. Yes this was part of my destiny to learn how I needed to compensate for my own lack of true self love and acceptance. I begged God and the masters of light to please forgive me for I had felt as if I had dishonored them by my actions. But throughout the time for this part of my life to end, at the most crucial moments of separation from the energy of the teacher and group I had this inner voice guide me to the right action. It was like being lifted and given the strength and light needed to take another step within a place of darkness and no way to see the correct path. Several times when I was alone I would hear a voice speaking to me as clear as if they were standing next to me. That voice was my higher self and guides and eventual my true connection to God. I was shown to purge everything within my life that represented the energy of the past. The altar, the statues, pictures, tapes, blessed rosaries all of it had to go. I used whatever I could to continue cleansing and purging. My inner voice said that I will find three healers who will help me and the last one will give me the ultimate gift. I was also told, early on that people are waiting for me so hurry up, I cried every time I heard these words spoken wondering after what I thought I had done how could I ever serve God again. Why would anyone ever wait for me? I was shown that I will help to heal the healers. Well it got to the point where I could sense the energy and the purging took more than three years to complete. I had nightmares and wrote them in a diary which I eventually buried in a church yard. I was taking no chances. Physically I had felt as if I was short circuiting. There were moments where it was if I knew my heart was about to stop and my life was going to end within a moment of time. The area where my heart is I felt a void as if my heart was missing. I actually went to a Doctor just to make sure my heart was where it belonged. For you see I did give my heart and the one thing that I wanted more than anything was to have my heart back. I continued to pray to Jesus for that to occur. At some level it is as if my heart now belongs to the Christ and the light that he served. It is part of the combined Divine energies that we all can share in.

The first healer provided me with the space to begin to release all of the energy within me, some of it ended up being from past lives as I had watched scenes as if in front of a movie screen. One of the visions of being tied to a stake and having someone, ( who was a part of this Karmic path) cut my heart out and hold it in her hands and I was still being kept alive to watch it. For so many of the session I cried, yelled, screamed out and thrashed my body from side to side. But after each time I had this sense of the universe and divine love. I was given Bach Flower Remedies which are wonderful. I asked the first healer to please help me to protect my heart and she placed a shield in front of it. Each session was as intense as the previous as my process of releasing energy continued. I had no idea of what was inside of me. Toward the end of my time with her I remember after a session leaving and we talked for a few minutes and then I began to feel something changing inside of me and I said " I created the circumstance behind my separation from the teacher on purpose". It was like opening up the floodgates. My soul knew it was time and I listened and did what I felt I needed to do without knowing the whys. After a few months I knew it was time for me to move on. The second healer, during our very first session saw the shield over my heart and I asked it to be removed. I did not want any foreign energy inside of me again. All of a sudden tear began to flow from me and I began to cry and screamed out what could she want from me. She already had everything. It was then that God showed me the Earth as it was before man, it was so beautiful and serene. That is when I realized it was not God who created all the problems it was mankind. He gave us the world in a perfect state. The healer then said to me, An angel of dark can appear as an angel of light but an angel of light cannot appear as an angel of dark. This is one I began to see who I am.